• The painting

    10. Apr. 2011, 13:55

    Oh that man and his beauty so fair
    His alabaster skin, yes the bounce of his hair
    His eyes fixated on me with tentive care
    The chaos in me fought with valour so rare

    In love with every single part of me
    The wild animal, the lost soul, the spirit so free
    I am not yet the person I know I will be
    And I wonder what I am in those eyes of he

    I am expanded by the size of his heart
    So open and warm, softly blemished but unguard
    Even his softest words are a form of art
    Drawing out the dark and tearing it apart

    All of me desires to wholly take him in
    The story in his eyes will leave me wondering
    As the stars light up his alabaster skin
    Will he know of the words I send to him

    I find my peace in the embrace of his arms
    So as he smiles to me with his undoubtly charm
    I tend to forget everything that can do harm
    Where ever my head, love will bring me home
  • Blauwe lippen

    3. Mär. 2011, 15:06

    Geel waar ooit blauw was
    Ik open oude wonden met een vork
    om de lucht er uit te laten

    Dromen die worden gestolen
    Vervagen in de handen van anderen
    Ik hou mijn adem altijd in

    Soms ben ik nog angstig
    De koude wereld kruipt in mijn deken
    Neemt plaats in mijn hoofd

    Blauwe lippen die roze waren
    Gebroken en bebloed door een gevecht
    Maar altijd gesierd met een lach

    Kijk diep in mijn felle ogen
    Mijn tranen zijn geen symbool voor lijden
    En tijd is niet meer dan littekens
  • Drowning

    18. Feb. 2011, 17:04

    I lived my life hastily
    The cold metal of a gun
    Put on the softness of my temple
    And I lived my life on the run
    Oblivious for the consequences

    I only knew I was meant
    For one thing, I was to die
    A curse that broke within the night
    I smile, I can no longer lie
    My sun is rising and I'm not you

    And I'm not the others
    My needs won't match theirs
    You'll try to find a point of reference,
    but can't see the one right there
    If you never dare to look in my eyes

    Can't you see that I am healing
    I might always stay broken
    But I'm released from my past and I'm not kneeling

    I am not the same
    I am never the same
    And sometimes I am not okay
    Does it make me the one to blame

    (Sometimes I will make mistakes)

    Remember the first time
    That I told you that I wasn't you
    You told me you would always hold me
    And that you would respect me too
    As the rain fell through your cold fingers

    You told me, perhaps this was a lie
    The new will always make the old die

    I will always be
    I will always be me
    Dancing in the sunlight
    The person that I want to be

    Is it okay to fight
    Is it okay to hold tight
    I will always follow my dream
    I will hold myself inside the light

    (Don't tell me not to believe in me)

    The world is just this one time
    I am going to live it the way I am before I drown
    I am going to do it like I am and I'll be fine
    And I am smiling as I am drowning
    I am ready to suffocate in high water
    I will know I will always get up for air
    Ready to dance, and ready to sing
    Society degraded being different and unique
    I am sad for them, they don't get my smile
    And it keeps you wondering as well
    Maybe one day you'll see I was not in denial

    Writings on the wall
    If you're looking for sanity
    I am not the one to call

    I am not a lie
    I'll live before I die
    Today is not the day I'll go
    I will be wiser than you and I

    The past was just a large equation
    Dragging me down in high tide
    These are the ruins that I leave behind
  • Your reality

    12. Feb. 2011, 21:13

    Letters in my mouth that are not mine
    They're yours
    Go ahead, assume, do what's necessary
    Alter my words
    To fit into your perception

    I was used to your song behind the corner
    Off my dream
    Never knew about the limits you had on us
    But now it seems
    I was fighting your battle

    At the end of the game, you gave me the rules
    Before you whispered to the world that I am fool

    The world slowly changes and so do we all
    That doesn't make us less to who we were
    I am not a victim to pressure from outside
    This is just where I landed after my fall

    You mocked my words and called me lost in a
    Field of reason
    But it was you that closed yourself off for me
    You were gone
    With the words I never said

    And why am I only said to be a follower
    When I don't follow the words you say
    Isn't that ironic, in a way

    Don't use my name to take yourself apart
    I am not the falsehood you are creating
    I am not here to battle your worldview
    The past I still cherish deep inside my heart

    I can never be someone else's creation
    And it was not up to you to decide
    What for me bears meaning every day
    I wake as me when I wake with the sun

    The pain makes me forget how to breathe
    I couldn't be the proof in which you could believe
    But I have to remember that this won't kill me
    You created an image of me inside
    In the end reality will blind us
    And it doesn't make it right
    For my part of things I'm truly sorry
    Perfectly flawed is what I am
    Is what we are
    As you spoke of the desire to go
    I let you carve yourself in me like a scar
    Wishing I was not too tired to fight you

    Your ears could not listen anymore
    And I could not be who I was before

    It does not matter who of us is to blame
    We all ended playing our part so well
    Solemn apologies to the tears I cried
    As I cherish what is left of the remains

    Goodbye my world, said by a single friend
    I am sorry for you not knowing me at all
    Goodbye for now, oh my familiar night
    You have wrote a chapter to its end

    (Emptiness still awaits
    But one day I will leave this place where you left me
    And watch the coming of the days once more)
  • Alice in Wonderland

    19. Dez. 2010, 14:09

    (Quis est deus…)

    Breathe in, breathe out
    Breathe in, breathe out

    Scared and alone
    Her hands over her eyes
    Falling from a cliff
    Cause she
    She believed she could fly

    Not feeling safe
    They said she was next
    Locked up inside
    Her mind
    A maze that is so complex

    This is her trying to protect all there is
    (I am not the hero they said I am)
    From dangers that might not even exist

    She is a riddle she thought
    That no one would understand
    Her mind is the mad teaparty
    She is Alice in a dark Wonderland

    (Quis est Veritas…)

    Dance with me
    Everyone says I'm mad
    Because I scream
    At night
    Suddenly laugh at the dead

    And I starve myself if it would kill the dark inside
    And I told the world what you did so you can not hide

    She is a riddle she thought
    That no one would understand
    Her mind is the mad teaparty
    She is Alice in a dark Wonderland

    She is a riddle she thought
    That no one would understand
    Her mind is the mad teaparty
    She is Alice in a dark Wonderland

    There's a line in my head which I can't cross
    It's the divide between their world and mine
    I am not sane nor am I insane
    But I am watching my mind slowly decline
    I am catatonia trapped inside a movement
    Everything to lose, everything to gain
    This world is an imagination trapped in reality
    Don't write my fantasy to an end

    And when the night wakes the day
    (You did this to me, did this to me)
    It starts all over again, will never go away

    She is a riddle she thought
    That no one would understand
    Her mind is the mad teaparty
    She is Alice in a dark Wonderland
    She is Alice
    Alice in a dark wonderland

    (Veritas vos libertatis…)
  • A heart in canvas

    3. Dez. 2010, 19:46

    (I called out to the skies: "Come find me…
    Because I love you
    Yes I love you!")

    You found me broken
    Dancing in the searing rain
    A spirit only for your eyes to see
    As fearless as you are
    You kissed my lips so tenderly

    Bathing me in the light
    Turning wounds into scars
    I can finally hear my heart beat
    You always surprise me
    In your presence I can breath

    (This is what you taste like….)

    Every single day I bless our sins
    I declared this love as my religion
    And drew our hearts in canvas
    An universe pressed into this skin

    A bad man once told me
    To never trust acts of love
    For truly nothing is as it seems
    Erase it from memory
    Show the music of your dreams

    (In your arms I can touch the sky)

    Every single day I bless our sins
    I declared this love as my religion
    And drew our hearts in canvas
    An universe pressed into this skin

    You can disguise the world into the night
    Until it's only us that I can see
    You placed yourself at my feet
    Told me it was time to feel safe and so I did
    You told me stories about who we could be
    And I believe, your voice empowering
    I believe you will catch me when 'I fall
    I madly adore you for all the fires you lit
    Your breath on my skin creates an animal
    But part of me will always watch you
    So silently, and so content
    I am the lucky one
    And I am loved

    Every single day I bless our sins
    I declared this love as my religion
    And drew our hearts in canvas
    An universe pressed into this skin

    Every single day I bless our sins
    I declared this love as my religion
    And drew our hearts in canvas
    An universe pressed into this skin

    (Your forehead against mine
    As you gaze deep into my eyes
    I can stay like this forever)
  • Us

    24. Okt. 2010, 12:23

    Let me look deep into your eyes
    On my lips forms the question why
    Why don't you bless me with a kiss
    And show me your wildest side

    A soft sigh and shivers I hide
    Whisper secrets in my willing ear
    That forbidden for all other lips
    You are a most endearing sight

    Go with me through this window
    Just you and I dancing in the rain
    Creating love within this moonlight
    My smile that will forever show

    Your face lid as a tender beam
    As I let my fingers trace your skin
    You placed yourself deep inside me
    And turned reality into a dream
  • Reflect me

    14. Okt. 2010, 15:55

    She was of a painful clarity
    A hardened soul in this dense world
    For some cold as a harsh winter's breeze
    They did not look further
    Her disdain judged so hastily

    For it was not female leisure
    To have a soul worth calling your own
    She was shrewd beyond their recognition
    Their malicious contempt
    Could never fully bother her

    But her eyes tread on me like on no other
    A vision I declared more beautiful than I
    A reflection born in an assiduous lie

    The mirror hold my secrets
    Sews back on my severed tongue
    She knows that I am filled with dreams
    The desires for which I long

    She tore her veil with pride
    Her eyes could set a world ablaze
    Dancing on these nocturnal melodies
    Slattern, they called her
    Only within her she could hide

    She swore that one day someone would find her
    Dust her off to see the treasure that's there
    Mend her heart with love and care

    My reflection I can't keep at bay
    And this woman, she is so headstrong
    But boy, let me whisper this into your ear
    It's you who she wanted all along

    Once I was small
    Crushed in the fear
    Of what I could become
    And now I am me
    Melting into me
    Reaching for my zenith
    Her hand, my hand
    Your love in my heart
    Setting the sun free
    With one single demand

    And here I stand, basking in this light
    A black bird pressed against your skin
    A princess commanding to be let in

    The mirror reflects what's inside
    And speaks to the one you can become
    If you listen to the voices of your heart
    Life will turn into an infinite song

    (This is where I came from, before you met me, my dear
    How I washed away the filth, to see you standing there, so clear)
  • A history of violence, unfolding

    2. Okt. 2010, 20:25

    In the darkest corner of my mind
    Is the place where I love to hide
    And keep humanity at bay
    A safe haven for me alone
    Against a world I can't always abide

    Holding onto this life of mine
    I rather fight and perhaps fall
    So I bend until I break
    Trying to please a silence
    On this spot, I will always stand tall

    But I am still running on these broken shells
    Because you made me believe I shouldn't trust myself

    Don't tell me not to resuscitate my broken dreams
    When they're still warm in the palms of my hands
    And don't say the bruises on my skin aren't yours
    I was profusely beaten by your ongoing demands

    Count the days I was unvoiced
    They are like tears, so plentiful
    And run in a vast supply
    From my eyes into my mouth
    When you said; be willing and bashful

    For so long I thought I could never feel love
    So I drowned myself out and still it wasn't enough

    Don't tell me not to resuscitate my broken dreams
    When they're still warm in the palms of my hands
    And don't say the bruises on my skin aren't yours
    I was profusely beaten by your ongoing demands

    But you have long since gone
    Out of my heart
    Still not out of my songs
    I plead for your love
    Now I plea for your quick
    And painful demise
    So you would leave me in my corner
    Leave me untouched by the licks
    Of your sickening past
    I can no longer bathe in your lies
    With my eyes downcast
    Sometimes I am happy in my darkness

    Don't tell me not to resuscitate my broken dreams
    When they're still warm in the palms of my hands
    And don't say the bruises on my skin aren't yours
    I was profusely beaten by your ongoing demands

    Don't tell me not to resuscitate my broken dreams
    When they're still warm in the palms of my hands
    And don't say the bruises on my skin aren't yours
    I was profusely beaten by your ongoing demands

    In utter despair
    I found myself lost from any care
    The world is dying
  • Eyes of the poet

    18. Sep. 2010, 21:25

    Chained to a wall
    A huntress awoken from the deep
    Perfectly placed words
    That roll from your tongue
    And chases away sleep

    A world painted in
    Your tragic eyes, troubled eyes
    Blades on a naked skin
    Drawing a life behind them
    They bleed out the lies

    I like tracing the lines of your body
    Even when you aren't here
    I can taste you from afar

    And we're going for new destinations
    Guided in by delightful sensations
    I will give you my biggest sacrifice
    To keep you safe, sane and sedated

    Cradling all of you
    In the palms of my small hands
    Locked inside my tower
    Between rocks and cliffs
    Slowly erasing demands

    Nocturnal promises placed on every endeavor
    As I watch from where I was never before

    Found myself in the arms of an art
    A new moon seeping into my heart
    I can't capture your image on paper
    But I have painted you in my mind

    Gently swayed into a surrender
    Forcefully played into control
    Tears of beauty inside my smile
    As I slowly release it all
    Fire burning behind my eyes
    Like feelings deep in my stomach
    As I slowly let myself fall
    A veil lifted by the eyes of a poet

    Your tongue plays with the words like a romance
    A caressing sound placed on the air
    The gift, both beautiful and rare

    Your hands, your movements enticing
    You're a soft force unwavering
    As your smile unfolds hidden worlds
    And the moon lights all intentions

    Forever, I capture you in my mind
    Unharmed from others of your kind
    Words of forgotten lore you bled
    Into this painting created of you

    In the eyes of a poet, romance never dies