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July 2015 - No Life for Me
This month was awful. Dare I say, worse than April? At least April had a sort of dark inspiration that ultimately led to the release of my album in May. July was nothing but stress. This stress put me into a deep depression and a horrible sickness. My body was aching, my stomach was in pain. I have never experienced this type of anxiety in my entire life. The music for this month was one of the best playlists of the year. I've continued my journey in shoegaze music and lo-fi music, which took up most of this playlist. Summer and shoegaze go so well together. One highlight of this month is I started dating someone on July 23rd. I really don't think this is a good relationship. But I'll ride it out for a while. The other big event was, the day before, I made the decision to stop talking to my ex. I sat him down and told him that we could not hang out anymore, as it was extremely toxic for me and my emotions. We haven't hung out since. I signed up for classes for Fall 2015, and I'm ta…
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June 2015 - T.I.M.E.
This month was an interesting one. I spent the first day of this month in Austin, and I got my ears pierced that day. This, to me, was a symbol of change and a great start for the month. I had an encounter with someone in a parking garage, while I was up there, after visiting 6th street... I left Austin with the impression I would be moving up there, but now I'm thinking I'll stay away from there for a little while longer. It isn't time. On June 9th (6/9 day), I hooked up with my ex for the first time in nearly 2 months. I don't really know what that was about. Things are going fine with us, but the whole situation between us is still kind of bizarre. I started hanging out with a lot of new people this month, and trying a lot of new substances. I tried morphine for the first time, and had a bit of a coke binge for a few days. The only thing was a few days after this, I began to feel extremely nauseous and I've been sick ever since. Its been over a week now. I'm not sure what's going o…
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May 2015 - Ultraviolence
May was a truly eventful month. Things started off rough, but I began to find myself again. The pain from the breakup was slowly fading, as I found new things and new people to associate myself with. My birthday was decent. I had three get togethers at my house this month. The final one was the most memorable, on May 22nd. I met this guy... a really young guy... and he came to my house for this party. The party got a little out of control, but it was so much fun. And it was even better knowing that my ex wasn't there. I felt happy for the first time in a long time. I've been doing well at my job, and things are looking up. I've had a few encounters with new people, but none of them were as nice as with this one person... I've been taking them out on dates, and taking things as slow as possible. I took one last trip to Austin on May 30th and returned on June 2nd. It was a lot of fun. I will always remember this month as the month I realized, I am my own person, and the month where I g…
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April 2015 - Daisy
For the first 4 months of 2015, I listened to one of Airiel's 4 Winks & Kisses EPs, in chronological order. This is similar to the project I did in 2012, where I listened to one of Brian Eno's 4 ambient albums every 3 months. This month was awful, and very eventful. Haven't had a month like this in a very long time. That being said, it was also a fantastic month of music... This music really helped me get through a difficult time. The person I've been seeing for months now, finally moved out. We split up on April 14th, after almost 6 months of being together, and exactly a year after the release of The Spiral Chord. It has been extremely difficult and confusing. I have gone in circles in my head a thousand times, and can only hope for the best. I quit my job at the college a couple days ago. I finally hit a breaking point. Tonight is the final night of Threepenny Opera, which I also dropped out of. I'm still working at Hot Topic, which is going great. A lot of this music was …
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March 2015 - Universal Truths and Cycles
This month was harsh. Between trying to figure out a plan for moving out, and mixed signals and lack of communication between numerous people, things have become increasingly more confusing. I was casted in a show at BC, and I just recently quit. We'll see soon if I decide to stay in it or not. As of now, I just can't do it. I'm working two jobs. One at Hot Topic and the other at the college. Here's to another month... Hopefully it gets better from here.
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February 2015 - So Tonight That I Might See
Things improved this month, but also became a little more confusing. I have been living with my partner at my parents house for about 2 months now, and have been given a move out date of March 31st. We've got a plan to move into a house in Brazoria pretty soon, with another couple. The rent is super affordable, split between all of us. I'm nervous and excited at the same time... I began working on campus in the marketing department on February 19th, and I love it. Its the exact job I could see myself working at. I had an interview with Hot Topic, which I should be hearing back from soon. I dropped out of the last show I got a part in, but now I'm acting in the next show at BC, in a musical with a lot of my friends. I think this show has the potential to be one of the best shows at our theatre in a while. I have a singing role, which I've never really had before. I don't think I'll drop this role. I can completely see myself going through with it, its just going to be a lot of work, an…
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January 2015 - Virgins
January was an endless month. The person who I've been dating since October has been living with us since the first day of the new year. This posed some difficulties on our relationship, in a lot of different ways. We also began taking a class together at the college, which has us spending a lot of time together. I wrote a play for a theatre production, and it went pretty smoothly. I took a small part in another theatre production, which I'm not too excited about just yet. Maybe my outlook on it will change closer to the production date. I got a job at another retail store, which isn't the greatest job in the world, but I'm just going into it with the mindset that I need to make money. I am officially completely broke. My student loans are due, so I need to stay in school or else I have to pay my loans back. My credit card is ran up past its limit. I feel completely lost, in a lot of ways... But I am so in love, and that feeling surpasses any level of pain and stress I could feel. I f…
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December 2014 - Ghost Story
The final month of a beautiful year. This month was stressful on my new relationship, because of the hours we were both working, and never getting a day off to see each other. I ended up quitting my job on December 29th. This was truly a unique year, and probably my best year since 2011. The cherry on top was finally meeting someone... One of the best feelings was spending new years with this person, and knowing that they had made it with me into the new year. They moved in with me on January 1st, and we have been sharing a room in my parent's house. Even with our few ups and downs, things are going fantastic... I never would have thought that meeting this person on October 26th would change my life forever, and I could not have asked for someone better. Here's to another great year...
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November 2014 - Ocean Death
Another month to add onto this truly unique year. I finished acting in another show, which will probably be my last show for a while. I began talking to someone, and got to know them during this month. This month lasted forever. I will never experience something like this again... I want to say this is my first time to fall in love, but I'm not sure yet. We'll have to see...
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October 2014 - Among the Leaves
October was maybe the best month of this entire year. Having a good month can be bittersweet. You wonder, will things get better from here, or take a turn for the worse? You tend to wonder the same thing, about certain years. This year has been one of my best years. It ties with 2008 and 2011. One vital thing I have learned this year, is that life is what you make it. One of the highlights this month, was my performance in Screwball Comedy. I knocked my performance out of the park. I also met a lot of great people. My garage sale plan was a success. We hosted it on October 11th, and made about 500 dollars. We're using that money to purchase a new table, which should be coming in tomorrow. I got a small part in the next production, and I got my job back in retail. The county fair was fun, as always. A friend of mine hosted a party, and that went well. I had a random encounter with someone I met online, which didn't last long at all... Then there's someone else... This person i…
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September 2014 - Overgrown
This month is notable for the number of new albums I listened to. While August was a big month of discovering older music, I dedicated September to catching up with albums that were released between 2013 and 2014. I listened to around 20 albums, some of which I streamed from YouTube and didn't download, because they weren't worth downloading. I spent a large part of this month, cleaning out the music room and preparing for the garage sale. During my cleaning time, is when I explored most of these albums. Another highlight of this month, was the release of two great albums. Aphex Twin released Syro, 13 years after Drukqs. And Thom Yorke released Tomorrow's Modern Boxes, 8 years after The Eraser.
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August 2014 - New Day Rising
So far, this month has been one of the best months of music, ever. I have listened to more new music this Summer than any other Summer. I got a job at Spencer's, which seems to be working out. I directed a show in the 1 Rev at BC, and auditioned for a show. This playlist is way too long, but it is impossible for me to exclude some of these songs.
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July 2014 - Damaged
This was an interesting month for music. I dyed my hair, and quit my job. I continued exploring more punk rock music. No events really stand out, but overall, it was a good month for exploring new albums.
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June 2014 - Raising Your Voice... Trying to Stop an Echo
I actually did nothing this entire month, but work practically full time at Walgreen's. I was trying to stay positive, but this was a horrible job. The highlight of this month was visiting Denton one last time with my best friend. It was a great trip.
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May 2014 - Cupid's Head
I moved home May 9th. Nothing can describe the relief I had. I decided this month that I wanted to try exploring more punk rock music. I also got a job at Walgreen's, which lasted until July. I had to find ways to get my mind off of all of my anxiety. I found a lot of comfort in punk rock music, and quitting college altogether. This was a vital month of change.
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April 2014 - Levitate
This was the month of anxiety. Probably the worst anxiety in my life. Not only was schoolwork becoming more difficult, April 3rd, 2014 there was a horrible storm that pushed through Denton. The tornado siren was right next to my apartment, so you can imagine how terrified I was when I realized it was too late to find a safer place to take shelter. I had a panic attack in my apartment, with this ridiculous fear that I would die before getting to release my album. I soon learned the noises I was hearing outside my apartment, wasn't debris hitting my roof, but instead just extremely large hail stones. I barely listened to any music for April. I had my traditional Sun Kil Moon album, and a few others. My main albums for this month were Idaho's Levitate and Low's Songs for a Dead Pilot. Both were great additions to my music library. I released The Spiral Chord on April 14th.
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March 2014 - Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots
This month I found out some unsettling news, and the title I chose for this month goes along with it. Another one of those months where the music just seemed to really go along with what I was going through at the time. During this month, a lot of anxiety was beginning to build. My album was almost finished, and I was beginning to set a deadline for April. Nothing would prepare me for the panic attack to come on April 3rd, and the burst of inspiration that would ultimately decide the fate of The Spiral Chord.
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February 2014 - Close to the Glass
Overall, this was a great month. Not only for music, but for everything else. Classes started sometime in January, and I began meeting some new people. I saved the last MBV album I had not listened to yet, for this February. There was a particular snow day that was more beautiful than ever. Also, February 24th, was one of the strangest and best nights of my life. As pathetic as that sounds.
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January 2014 - The Rising Tide
I spent New Years in Denton, TX at a party with some friends. I had a good feeling about this year.
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December 2013 - A Strangely Isolated Place
I began working at the Kohl's in Denton, TX in late November, but was practically working full time during the month of December. This month I did nothing but work my butt off, and meet new people at this Kohl's. It was freezing. Everything felt so new, but so lonely at the same time. There was a freeze for about a week, where the entire city was covered with a sheet of ice, and I couldn't drive anywhere. I attended a few parties with some friends. Overall, this was a bizarre month, but this is definitely one of my favorite playlists. The music fit the month perfectly. Another thing, was that my pet that I had since I was 7 years old, passed away.
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