Hi. I'm Ted. I used to sing for a band called
. We put out 3 records in our 10 year career. We went on
a lot of tours too. In my opinion, the best thing we ever did in
that time was to write and record a record called The God Complex.
If you're not familiar with it, you can stream it here:
Another Breath - The God Complex (via Panic
We all put everything we had into the record and,
unfortunately, by the time it came out we were all out of gas in
various ways. The band fizzled and died before we got the chance to
tour on this record the way I think we should have. The band did do
one tour in Europe to support the record but I didn't go with them.
Jon sang and our buddy Mike filled in on guitar. I don't regret a
lot of things but I regret that. I really wish I could have figured
out a way to come and do that but the truth is that I chose my job
over a month of suffering in a van with my friends. I feel dirty
even saying that.
The one right decision I made was to keep this blog. At the
time I really just thought it would be cool to have something in
the background keeping track of my thought process while I was
trying to pen the words for this thing. I was having some sort of
existential crisis and was thinking way too much and I needed to
find a way to say what I wanted to say without filling the record
with unnecessary words. This was my compromise. A blog in some dark
corner of the internet where I could ramble on and on without
having to worry about its artistic merit. In hindsight it's turned
out to be just as much a part of the record as the lyrics to a lot
of people. After the record came out I made it private because I
was feeling like a pretentious douche for writing so much about a
little hardcore record. Now though I feel like it might be ok to
put it back out into the world.
If I were going to be honest I'd have to admit that this is
one of my favorite records. I had to disable my last.fm a while ago
because I didn't want anyone to know that it was my number 1
listened-to record. I guess at this point I don't care who knows.
My favorite records have always been the ones that I sat down with
and said to myself, "Fuck I relate with this so much. I feel like
this person was writing about me." Well this record actually is
about me so I relate with it a lot. In my world it's one of the
most important records that's ever come out because it represents a
time in my life when I decided to stop being owned by my past and
embrace the idea that the world might have something for me in it.
It changed my life. I can't promise the same for you but I can say
that I hope it hits you in some of the same spots that it hits me.
If you like it a lot, read the blog. You need to go back to
the beginning and read it chronologically for it to make sense. And
maybe if you're a nerd like me you'll want to listen to the record
while you're reading. Yeah, I do that sometimes.
Anyway, thanks for liking our band. It's defined who I am as
a human for the rest of time and this record is a testament to the
fact that it's always been more than just a bunch of sweaty
boys jumping around saying mean things about my ex girlfriend (I
really am sorry about that, by the way). My only hope for you is
that you have had or someday might have something as powerful in
If you want to dig into this thing,
and follow the links at the bottom of the page